Surprisingly nervous

The Mad Beach sprint triathlon is Sunday and I'm actually nervous. On
a Friday night?

My enemy is not a competitor or the course, it is my evil inner
committee that clings to the past. They say I didn't train hard
enough, lose enough weight, and that I'm not tough enough to go all
out. I'm worried that I will give in to the pain of the effort and
settle. A course PR is not enough. The 2003 PR is soft. Somehow I have
to settle into my personal pain cave and throw a party there. In the
end, it's not about the time or where I finish in my age group, I will
lose on Sunday if I finish the race thinking "I could have gone
faster."